Ok well its been awhile since I wrote anything of great meaning that I didn't just get over in a matter of hours...  This has been bothering me for a long time, so its time for an all out bitch and ramble. I know it will make me feel better.

I miss you, everyday. I don't know when it will stop. I don't know when I starting falling for you but I did. I guess that is the day when it all got messed up. Its my fault, and your fault. I just thought that the pain would lessen more each day. But its still there just as it was. And I just don't know what to do with these feelings. There was something about you that I fell for, and I haven't seemed to stop. You are always in my thoughts. I'm staying busy with homework, tests, work, friends, and getting ready for spring break. You're just with me every step of the way. I guess that most of all I miss my friend.  You said you had feeling for me, that you did care, and that you were scared. I didn't know what to do with that then, and I don't know what to do now, cause it hasn't changed anything except make things even wierder. And if you didn't see it then, I am scared to. The hardest thing is life is deciding whether to let go...or try harder.